I guess this is how Dora the Explorer would feel, if she is real, everytime she is asked “where are you going?” by Boots. At least Dora has a map to consult where she is going.  What kind of fate is this? I guess I will have to be more specific about where I wanted to go when I pray. As of the moment, I don’t have a clear direction on which account I should be. The technical account that I am in right now have decided to let go of agents which is the reason why the training class that I am in will be moved to another technical account. Moving people to another account would mean moving team leaders as well. Since the number of TLs would depend on the population of an account, right now, we are over staffed on the TL level as well. I can understand why an Account Manager would prioritize moving a new person to the account since that wouldn’t make much of an impact to their numbers compared to moving someone who is already part of the framework. Although having a new blood in the team may have it’s advantages, the disadvantages could still outweigh its advantages.

So I was given the question again, would I consider moving? I knew that question is coming my way, I just didn’t know when. So I wasn’t too surprised when that question was asked but I was disappointed though for it was still asked. Hay… So now, I am at a crossroad once more and asking myself, which path to take. Should I stay where I am at or should I move towards an unfamiliar territory?

***written July 15th, 2011

Walked from IT Park to Banawa today. I was planning to do this for a long time but never had the courage to do so. But today, I was forced to walk home not because there was no vehicles going my route but because of the email from someone from the CI team who, I think is now the OM of one of the logos that we won this year. It was an email for an interview and it will be at 12AM Philippine time. It seems that if I pass this interview, there will be a possibility that I will move to that account instead of the technical account that I am very happy to be a part of. Hay… I felt really bad and felt like crying the whole shift. I didn’t know how to react to the news that I received. And talking to my supervisors confirmed the possibility of me moving to yet another account. I am not sure if the tears are due to apprehensions or is if it is because I like the account that I am in right now. I am having apprehensions for this other account will really take me out of my comfort zone. Other than my experience as a team leader, I don’t have any other skill that I may bring to help me with my role. Honestly, I am having a bit of difficulty re-orienting myself with technical terms and doing troubleshooting what more when I move into that other account.

So, I ended up walking from IT Park to Banawa hoping to clear my mind. I decided to take that long walk after I talked with Cathy and Dio. It was tiring but I am glad that I did it. For after a hike like walk near Park Lane and some rough sidewalk from there to Banawa, my mind has cleared and I am now more confident to go to that interview room and go through the interview. And then I will decide if I will move or not once I pass it.

I was going through the blogs of some of the friends that I have made through blogging and it seemed like most of them have gone on hiatus or just simply stopped blogging. It’s sad to know that they had stopped writing. I guess they got tired of writing down their thoughts to share it with other people. But I guess that’s just how it is. You will just reach the point where you no longer find any sense in what you’re doing so you just stop. And if you have a blog like mine, where you just write down whatever is on your thoughts, there will be a time when you get tired of sharing what’s on your mind for people who may know you in the real world (I am referring to those who barely know you) tend to draw conclusions about what you’ve written and at times judge you of who you are.

Others may have created a new blog. Just like Wu Chun, who by the way is the epitome of my ideal man, had created his own site since their group had stopped maintaining farhenciti.com. Hay, sad. But that’s just how it is. As time passes, people change and so are the things around us. On the book of Rick Warren, The Purpose Driven Life, he had stressed it multiple times that Life is about change. That everything is temporary. So we should look at life that way. It is temporary. The same way as what you have now may change into something better or something worse. But never think that it would stay that way forever. Same goes with the people that you know. They will come and go. That each person that arrives into are lives has their purpose why they came to our lives and there will be a point in time that they will leave once they have served their purpose. And those who will stay, will change over time so be ready to accept that.

Monday, the start of a new week. Today’s the first day of week 2 for training. Shocks, it going to be another nose bleeding session. Wootsie!

I am looking forward to a lot of things this week. First, the training of course. Then on Wednesday is our business meeting in Marco Polo and then the General Assembly and elections of Board of Trustees of iLearners on Saturday. Wootsie! I can’t wait to see my fellow iLearners this weekend. We haven’t seen each other for quite a while now. I hope my schedule won’t change so that I can go and see them :).

Since I am back to training, my schedule changed and that includes my rest days. Thank God for this weekend off for I will be able to go to the Back to School Project of our company with Gawad Kalinga. I will be going to Talisay, Cebu later for the turnover of the school supplies that we were able to collect. Then, I will go to Ayala to pick up a new fluorescent lamp for the one in our kitchen is no longer working. It’s going to be a busy day since I plan to stretch my muscles a bit before I head out today. Hay, and I am up so early and I feel like I still want to hit the sack. Hmmm… I guess I will just get an hour of stretching my muscles in bed… That didn’t sound right, I think. Hehehe…

The new chapter in my career started a week ago. Moving to a new account is like a breeze of fresh air for me. I can now say that if you have an employee who is very tenured, you have to give them something new to challenge themselves is true. Now to help me become an effective team leader, I was asked to shadow my fellow team leaders on their daily tasks and then this week, I was sent to training to help understand the products that we support and what a technical agent does to support out customers. Since I used to be in a customer service department, learning more about how we support our products on the technical side is pretty exciting and a little bit of a shock for me. Although, some of the technical terms that were mentioned in the modules are familiar to me, most of it are like terms from a foreign language that I have to look for resources to help me understand it.

The first week of training felt like I am back to school once more. I felt like a book with blank pages on it, a freshman who attended the first class of her major subject. There were times that I felt so clueless about what was being said and my brows are like entwined to each other. Thank God I am using a laptop with internet access while on training for that made resources easier to get to. And thank God for those people who thought about creating technical blogs for it made my training easier to understand. It was like being in an exploration trip. Every now and then there is something new to learn and look for. I guess that’s what made it so exciting. We talked about the features of different operating systems (which I knew existed but never really got to explore them), talked about Virtual Machines and tried how it works (for training purposes we used VirtualBox) and a lot of other things that made me understand our products that if I would go back to the customer service department I can now explain things in such a way that our customers can easily understand. Sheesh, I never thought learning new things can still excite me.

I am thinking of visiting a restaurant each week or every payday and try out their food. And write about them in my blog. Hmmm… But I need a camera. I wonder if my friends will lend me their camera for my blog. I already have a couple of things in mind. A friend of mine is bragging about the halo-halo of Vienna Bistro and that it tastes better than Razon’s which my friends from Manila are bragging about. I am also planning to try the coffee of Coffee Dream. Starbucks, Coffee Bean, Bo’s and Coffee Dream are like the 4 major brands of coffee shops in Cebu so I want to try it out. I haven’t tried the coffee from Coffee Cat too. Hmmm…

I think I am a coffee addict. Or is it that I want a coffee shop for myself which is why coffee shops are like my favorite spots these days? Hmmm…

Yup! You got that right! I actually got a frocinno at Bo’s in IT Park for 50 pesos earlier today. This is in celebration to their 15th year anniversary and for opening their 50th branch. On Tuesdays and Thursdays from June 28th to July 21, 2011, one can buy their short brewed coffee for 15 pesos only from 10AM to 3PM and their tall Froccino for 50 pesos from 3PM to 7PM and 12MN to 4AM (for their 24-HR stores). Woots!!! It was a lifesaver for I was so damn sleepy earlier that I almost fell asleep while listening to a call. A friend of mine told me to get some coffee as a way of teasing me, so I got out of the office and grabbed one. I felt so relieved on the first sip. It felt like I have been longing to have that taste in my mouth that when it touched my tongue, I felt energized and relieved. It was like a welcoming feeling when the taste of the coffee touched my tongue and when my nose smelled the aroma of brewed coffee. The coffee jelly froccino was made just right. Not to sweet and not too bitter. However, the jelly was too soft though unlike the coffee jelly of Starbucks and oh, their cream tastes funny. It was sweet and had a buttery texture. It wasn’t like the whipped cream of Coffee Bean (which I like the most for its flavor) and Starbucks. But it went well with the coffee once you mixed it with the coffee. However, don’t eat the cream on it’s own for it was like eating sweetened butter or something. Maybe Bo’s should consider changing how they prepare their whip cream or change the brand that they’re using.

Today marks a new chapter in my career with the company that I am working for. For today instead of going to the 12th Floor, I will be going to the 9th Floor to shadow a fellow team leader from another Line of Business of ours. New floor, new team, new challenges. Although I am excited to work with another team, I am also scared of what will happen in this new account of mine. I am not sure if this move is a wise decision but I will have to face it’s consequences. I pray that the Lord will guide me and help me conquer any challenges that might come my way. And I pray that in this move, I will become a better person.