I’m not really sure if the politicians in the Philippines is really worth the taxes that we the Filipinos pay. Imagine almost 30% of what I earn goes to my taxes and yet one of the congressmen of the Philippines wants to waste time and the money that a lot of people have worked hard for over a congressional hearing for Judy Ann Santos, a local actress in the Philippines just because she appeared in an informational ad about what makes up the monthly electric bill of the Filipinos. The ad discussed what is System loss charge about. The ad was quiet helpful for it did answer a lot of the questions that the Filipinos have because Mr. GSIS of the Philippines had raised a war against a privately owned electric company. He wants the major stock holder to sell their share to the government so that the government will run it. He said that if the government will take over the company then the electric bills of the Filipino people will go down. Like HALLER!!!! If the company will just go to the likes of Mr. Incompetent and to Mr. GSIS, let us not mention their names so that they won’t become famous and so that they won’t be able to use it as a campaign ad in the 2010 elections in the Philippines, then the residents in Metro Manila should consider getting their own power generators.

Why? My God, would you even consider letting Mr. Incompetent whom I’m not even sure if he understood what the ad was about, to run a multi million company? Or would you let Mr. GSIS, who can’t even fix the problems in the government agency that he is handling run Meralco? Come on! I really can’t understand what these people take the Filipinos for? When will they stop treating us like dumb people? Just because most of us stopped going to the streets to protest means that we agree to what they want to happen. Didn’t it even sink into their dumb minds that the Filipinos are tired of seeing our country in the dumps. That we have realized that there are better ways to help the country progress. Instead of just complaining about our situation, we the Filipinos are working our butts off to earn and pay the right taxes. It’s just ashame that there are PEOPLE who are supposed to serve the country are using our money for sense-less things and for their own personal gain.

There people who loves to sleep until noon. But me I love to wake up at dawn because I love to watch the sky changes it’s color. From black to dark blue with streaks of red, orange and yellow because of the sun rising then to light blue. I also love the smell of early morning breeze and how cool it feels on my face. I also feel at peace during this time for all that you could hear are the chirping of the birds and the crows of the roosters from I don’t know where unlike at noon when all you hear are the roar of the machines and some people quarreling. Before when my work starts at 8AM I would usually wake up at 6AM and sit in our balcony to watch the birds fly, watch the sky change it’s color and feel the breeze of early dawn. Hay… How I miss the breeze of the early morning breeze. This is one of the things that I don’t like in working for the call center industry.

You spend dawn inside a building instead of spending it in your balcony with a cup of hot drink. And you spend the nights working instead of sleeping. You sleep in the morning and miss a lot of things that had happened. You also spend the holidays in the office rather than spend it with your love ones. But then again, there are no other industries who is as diverse like the call center industry. Companies don’t judge you by the course that you took in school. They don’t judge you by who knows you or who you know. They judge you by your capabilities and your attitude towards your job. That’s why I’m sticking around in this industry for a while. So what I do know is I stand by a window in the office to watch the skies.

Go home as soon as I can after the end of my shift so that I can get out of the building to feel the breeze of fresh air. I also wake up at 4AM during my rest days to listen to the sound of early dawn. I’ll do this until I can get out of this industry and do what I love to do.

A friend of mine asked me if I have seen a movie entitled PS I love you. I told her that the title sounds familiar however, I’m not sure if I’ve seen it. She said it was about a woman who lost her husband to cancer and she got mails from him after he died. This is his way of helping her cope with her lose. Then I realized this is the book that I’ve read. And if I’m not mistaken it was Reader’s Digest who published it. It was a good book. I cried a good deal while I was reading it. I guess it made such an impact that when I remembered it my tears started to well under my eyes. I’m not sure what made me cry though when I read the book. Was it because of the loss that the girl felt or was it the thought that her husband went through all the trouble to come up with a way to help her get through the ordeal of losing somebody that she truly loves even when he was ill? It was a sad book, really. But romantic as well. There was a part when the girl and her husband was fighting and the guy held her face in two hands, looked her in the eyes and asked her “what do you want? Because I know what I want. I’m holding it in hands.” Wahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wonder how some people could easily find things to write about. And write about it so beautifully and sensibly. Is it really a gift or is it something that they have done for so long that it became easy for them to do it? Some of these people can even write about a shirt and go on about it without boring the people who reads it. And they can even write about it in a short period of time. A friend of mine asked me to write 50 short articles about anything that I want to write about in a month. Well, guess what, 5 month have passed and I’m not done with the fifty articles yet. So I wonder how they do it. You know come up with the topic and write a book about in a short period of time and keep the attention of the people who reads it. Because I can’t even keep the attention of the person that I talk to even for 10 minutes much more have them read about what I think. I had a feedback for a coaching session where one of my coachees told my mentor that I was boring.

Great! Thank you so much for confirming what I already know. So here I am contemplating if I really should go for a career in writing. Funny isn’t it? I don’t know. At times I just want to do things because I want to do them and then I’ll just drop it without any reason at all. And right now, I want to write. About what? That I can’t answer yet. At times I just don’t know what I like to do. Just like my brat friend, at times, I find myself wanting to stop what I am doing and do something else. Something that I feel like doing at the spur of the moment. Even though at times I don’t even know what that something is. Am I impulsive? No I don’t think so. Well, at least my DiSC result says so. It said that I am an analytical thinker. I think before I move. At times I even think too much that at the end I end up not doing what I want to do. Crazy isn’t it?

I’ve just learned that the guy whom I talked about a couple of entries back is no longer in our province. He went somewhere else. Such a waste. And I was even hoping to see him again when I go back home. Oh well, then it only means one thing. We’re not meant to be. Hahaha… As if! Hehehe… Anyway, I wish him luck. I hope he’ll find what he is looking for and I hope he’ll succeed in the field that he chose to take. I know it’s going to be a bit difficult ‘coz there are a lot of them in that field and not all make it to the top so I really wish him luck. I didn’t really expect that he will go for that course because I never saw him that way. But I guess a lot of people didn’t as well. Since a lot of people were taken aback when we heard the news. Wow! I guess that’s the first sign huh? I mean if you really like somebody and you know that person, you will have that gut feeling about what he will be in the future. In his case, I didn’t have any. No clues at all. Like what I’ve said, I didn’t even thought that he will take such course in college. So could this mean that even if he had courted me, it wouldn’t work out anyway? because we don’t know one another much.

I heard one of my colleagues earlier say which is worse, to say something that you’re not suppose to say or didn’t say something that you should have said? Hmmm… I guess that will depend on what that something is and it’s effect to the people around you. If saying that something will hurt the people around you then it will be better to leave it unsaid but if that something will help somebody then say it. So what if that something will help somebody but at the same time hurt somebody then what should you do? Then we will have to weigh the cons and pros. Do what is good for the majority. I think it’s similar to what an author have pointed out before. He said that if somebody said something that you know is wrong and if correcting him in the middle of the crowd will not have any effect on the conversation other than destroying the relationship between you and that person then better keep the truth to yourself and correct him when you’re alone. But of course it will be different if it will involve the safety of other people. Because we do have a responsibility to look after the safety of other people. If a person tells another person to drink a certain chemical because it is not poisonous but you know otherwise then you will have to step up and tell the truth. Get my point?

If you’re looking for a tuna sandwich that has a kick in it, try The Tuna Wasabe Sandwich of Cheesecake etc. I tried it a few days before I left for Makati last March. It’s very filling but very light. The lettuce and tomatoes are very fresh which adds a refreshing feeling and the bread is moist unlike in other restaurants were it seems like they’re using stale bread. The Wasabe was just enough to make you feel that it’s there but it does not overpower the taste of the other ingredients. It’s really good. And I think those who are in diet will appreciate it for it’s so filling that you wouldn’t feel hungry for a couple of hours. You pair it with their iced tea which was also really good and then end the meal with a slice of their blueberry cheesecake. Hmmmm…

Before I used to think that I was wiser than my age. But working with different kind of people from different age groups with different backgrounds made me realize that I’m a novice in a lot of things. Like if you want to be somebody in your workplace it is not enough that you’re really good at what you do. You will also have to learn how to get along with other people to encourage cooperation within the organization. That if you didn’t like something or if you have something in your mind that will help the organization, you will have to not just speak your mind but have something to back it up. That if you want to achieve something, it is not enough to make a plan and implement it, it is also important that you follow through to check if there are other things that needed to be done to improve the current process. That being nice to everybody doesn’t really mean that you’ll get along with everybody nor will being rude help. That not all people can be trusted especially when these people have ambitions and you are in the way for them to achieve their goals.