Monday, September 8th 2008. It was my restday and I had a lot of time on my hands so I decided to ask my brother to go to the mall with me to hang out. So after recycling the bulletin of Joseph’s team (where I used to belong to) into my own bulleting board, I went to Ayala Cebu to meet up with my brother (who waited for two hours for me. Am that bad…) so that we can go to SM. Then he asked me if we can eat at Jollibee, I said sure and he ended up paying for my meal (told you am bad). But I did offer to for mine but he insisted so I let him do it (am a very supporting sister you know). Then we went back to Ayala then went home. When we got home, I opened up the Buzz magazine that he bought earlier on (to pass the time while waiting for me) and out of sheer fun, I went to the horoscope section and read what my stars have set for me. It said:

Aayain ang kapatid o kaanak na mamasyal. Ang gagawing ito ay magiging daan para kayo lalong maging close at magkahingahan ng problema. May naghihintay na sorpresa sa iyo bago matapos ang kasalukuyang buwan. Kung may apply sa abroad, mukhang nagkakaliwanag na. Lucky number: 31.
It goes something like this is English: (You will ask your sibling or relative to hangout. This will make your bond stronger and will be an opportunity to talk about issues/problems. A surprise is awaiting you before the month ends. You’re application to go out of the country is finally falling into place. Lucky number: 31)

After reading it, I was so freaked out! What the heck! I did go out with my bro and got a surprise to learn that an old friend got married! Although, they could have put a “s” on the surprise part because I did get a lot of those these past few days!

I’ve heard this song in Dylan’s site and I so liked it that I went ahead and searched for the band. And I am so lucky for they have a site which brought me to their youtube site where I found videos of the songs that they played. I don’t know if you guys have heard them but for those who hasn’t well don’t despair for I bring you Boyce Avenue.

Anyway, this song kinda hits the spot that is why among the videos that was posted in their site, I posted this one on my site.

Boyce Avenue is a Florida-based band popular for its strong acoustic roots and constant drive toward a melody- and harmony-driven rock sound, consists of the three brothers Alejandro, Fabian, and Daniel Manzano, and Stephen Hatker.

So guys, give it up for Alejandro Manzano of Boyce Avenue with their version of Rihanna and Neyo’s HATE THAT I LOVE YOU!

Yeah, I really do hate the fact that I love you boy but question is do you even know that I love you? (No need to ask who it was cause I ain’t tellin’.)

I never liked the idea of writing my thoughts.  Because I was afraid that writing my thoughts down will show my vulnerabilities.  But I guess I got caught up with the blogging fever so I tried it out.  I never expected that I will love writing things down.  It’s only been a couple of months since I started blogging but I became addicted to it.  When I get home from work, my mind wants me to sit in front of the computer and typing the ideas that I have in mind.  This is becomiing an addiction for me and I have to learn how to control it.  For I am human and I do need to get some rest like everybody else.  Wahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!  No matter how I try, I really can’t help it.  Maybe I should stop looking at my computer’s direction so I won’t get tempted to even turn it on.

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A dress fit for a very special lady for a very special occasion.

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This is one dress that I’d love to wear when I attend a special occasion.  I saw this at Filippo in Ayala, Cebu City.  I don’t know who made it but he/she does know how to make a girl feel special.  The cut of the dress is a bit ordinary but what I love about the dress is the details.  It’s made up of a couple of different fabrics.  Although, it has small flowers on it, it still looks classy and chic.  Another thing that I love about this dress is, it’s so classy that it won’t go out of style.  So very Filippo.  Whoever owns this boutique have a very good sense of style.  I’m thinking it might be a Kate Torralba dress for she loves to make a matching bag to the dresses that she makes.  But I’m not a hundred percent sure.  There are a lot of great designers out there, here and abroad but nevertheless, I’d definitely wear this dress if I can afford it.

Why does it hurt more when the people who betray you are the people that you trust and love most? And why is it that the people whom you trust and love are the people who betray you? Is it because they know that in the end, they will be forgiven? Or are they expecting us to feel nothing when they betray us? That we will overlook whatever it is since we love them. I saw an episode of TV series before where an old woman told the leading character that when we love somebody we give them the right to hurt us. But why do these people choose to hurt us then?

Isn’t our love and affection enough for them to be happy? Isn’t it enough for them to just love us back?

I know that people have ambitions. Each and every one of us wants to achieve something. There are people who make fun of others in other to get attention. Others will tell you what to do in front of everybody to show everybody that they are helping you but the truth is they’re just trying to show that they are better than you. But why do we have to hurt people in expense of success? If you want to help somebody then why don’t you tell that person privately, why do you have to tell him or her on what to do in front of everybody? If you want to get attention or want to make other people laugh why make fun of other people? It’s funny how people change when it comes to power.

Friends forget who their friends are. Even family members forget to respect their elders when they want something. I remember a cousin of mine went to see my mom to have her sign some papers to sue by her siblings who are my cousin’s father’s siblings over a piece of land. Funny isn’t it? We sometimes fail to see what is more important in life. We choose land over the people who loved us since we were kids and we choose power over the people who care for us. When you think about it, land and power are things that we cannot take with us when we die. These things cannot love us back because a time will come when another person will come along and take it away from us, unlike respect, love and trust. These are things that can never be taken away from us. We will only lose them if we ourselves gave it up.

There is this girl whom I knew when I was younger who is now working for the company that I work for. I consider her as one of the strong willed students in our school. She was an active member of the student body and usually a member of the team that will represent our school in school competitions. I see her as a person who knows what she wants to be even in such a young age. When she talks a lot of people would listen. However, when I approached her a couple of days ago I was taken aback for she’s no longer the outspoken person that I knew. She became a meek person. A person who is unsure of herself. She barely looked at me when I was talking to her. And when we were walking in the hallway, she didn’t walk beside me. She was a step away behind me. She was almost whispering when she replies to my questions. I was so surprised that I almost asked her where is the girl that I use to know.

What did you do to her? Now I’m wondering what happened within the years that I haven’t seen this girl? Did somebody say something to her that made her lose the confidence that she had when she was younger? Did she fail to achieve the goals that she had set for herself that she doesn’t want to go for what she wants?

A friend asked me the other day to help her decide on what she’ll do with her life.  This was funny because I myself didn’t know what I want until that day that she asked me.  I realized that I want to live in the country or a province and become a cook for a diner.  I want to live in Europe and live near a river and have a small garden like the guy who lives in River Cottage.  This guy who knows how to cook, made a farm out of his small garden and catches fish from the river whenever he wants to have fish for his meal. Then I can go around the village to spend the afternoon.  Hahaha… Isn’t it silly?  I guess it is because I want to cook so badly that I dream of doing just that when time comes.  I think I’ll do it once my sister finishes school.  I’ll apply as a cook for a diner in one of the provinces of England or Norway or Switzerland or France and live there.  I wouldn’t care if the pay is not that high as long as it will let me live my dream life and support my family’s needs.

Working in a call center can get a bit boring or stressful at times so we would usually send out emails to cheer each other up.
One of my favorite email is about a guy who got really drunk that when he arrived home, he didn’t recognize his wife. His wife was pissed off when she saw him but decided to nag him the next day for obviously it will be useless to nag her husband about now for he’s still drunk. So she decided to remove his clothes and shoes so that she can replace it with some fresh clothes. When she was removing his clothes, her husband said something that made her smile. The next day, the guy woke up late and was surprised that his wife didn’t wake him up to start nagging him about the other night. He got out of their bedroom to look for his wife but he only found his son playing a video game. He went to the kitchen to get some coffee and was even surprised that there was already coffee brewing in the coffee maker and the breakfast was already prepared on the table. Worried that his wife might have changed strategies, he went to ask his son about what happened the other night. His son told him that when his mom was removing his clothes he got mad. He shouted “Lady, I’m married! So stop it!” Whew! talk about saying the right words at the right time.

There was a song by Code Red entitled “What good is a heart” whose lyrics goes, what good is a heart if you’re not willing to use it? My question is, what good does it do to have the willingness to use it when there’s no one to use it with? Hehehe, a rhetorical question but I think it applies to a lot of people. Remember that there are people who are not in a relationship not because they want it that way but because they didn’t find somebody to commit to. Or they did find that someone but that someone was not willing to commit into a relationship with them.