I’ve been feeling lonely since I got back to Cebu. Damn, never thought I’d feel this way when I get back. I hate times like these for it makes me think about how I get along with other people and makes me ask if I am born a loner or was it by choice? Either way, it’s a sad thought. Because it all boils down to how pathetic my life is. Born a loner would mean people can’t stand me, a loner by choice would mean I can’t stand other people. The end result, I don’t have anyone that I could hang out with anytime that I want to. The people around me has their own lives and I definitely wouldn’t want to get in the way. For some, well, it’s true, I can’t stand them at times for all we could talk about is work or worse, they would usually talk about themselves. I couldn’t blame them though, for most of them are from work and we don’t have much in common aside from work and the rest well, some people couldn’t help themselves. I am guilty of the crime every now and then too. Sometimes, I just want to have someone who won’t talk about work and not talk just about themselves. Well, yeah I know that it’s tough to come up with things to say but you know sometimes some people would just want to have someone to sit with. I guess I crave for some mind stimulating conversation every now and then or hang out with someone but just sit there without saying anything. Sometimes people get comfort on knowing that someone is there with you but are technically not there for they don’t say a word. I don’t know if you get what I mean for I don’t think I was able or will be able to put it in words. But don’t you just wish to sit outside and watch people go by and not say anything but you feel secured for someone’s there sitting beside you? I guess this is the reason why I like putting extra hours at work. For it makes my mind work and takes my mind off these things.