These past few days 2 of my friends (who do not know each other), at two different occasions, came up to me to warn me about someone who is close to me. They told me to be careful of that person for she is talking ill about me when my back is turned. Knowing this made my heart ache a lot for I’ve always thought we’re friends. That she doesn’t just see me as someone in the management team in a prestigious company but because we’re friends and she had the same level of respect and trust that I have for her. Have you remembered anyone saying that betrayal hurts a lot when it was the people whom you trust who betray you?  Just imagine a character in a movie where they found out that someone has betrayed them. It was as if the heavens have fallen unto their shoulders.  That’s exactly how I felt.  See, I’ve always thought that if the time will come that I need someone to defend me, she would be one of those people but I was wrong .  

I am a person who seldom talk about my feelings but last night, I really couldn’t help myself (guess, that’s the effect when you’re birthday is a few hours away), I became emotional that I had to talk to someone.  Because aside from the fact that someone had betrayed me, I also know that there are 2 reasons why people would talk ill behind your back.  One is either they envy you because you’re good at what you do that you threaten them as a person or that you really sucked.  I know people are talking behind my back all this time but that didn’t mean much for those were just my specualtions.  Having a confirmation is another thing but I would just usually brush it off and try to do better but right now, isn’t really my best times.  With all the stuff going on at work, let us say that my confidence is really low right now.  So, this thing really affected me.  For I am not just questioning myself about how good of a friend I am but I am also questioning my competency as a leader.

So as I was closing the old chapter in my life with a sad note, a friend who was kind enough to spend the last few hours before the new chapter in my life began, he told me to think of it as a starting point to reinvent myself.  Make a new version of me, just like a software.  He said that events happen in our lives to make us into the person that we are so one should learn from them to innovate themselves.  Then he said, maybe now is the time that you make Michy version 25.2.