These past few days 2 of my friends (who do not know each other), at two different occasions, came up to me to warn me about someone who is close to me. They told me to be careful of that person for she is talking ill about me when my back is turned. Knowing this made my heart ache a lot for I’ve always thought we’re friends. That she doesn’t just see me as someone in the management team in a prestigious company but because we’re friends and she had the same level of respect and trust that I have for her. Have you remembered anyone saying that betrayal hurts a lot when it was the people whom you trust who betray you?  Just imagine a character in a movie where they found out that someone has betrayed them. It was as if the heavens have fallen unto their shoulders.  That’s exactly how I felt.  See, I’ve always thought that if the time will come that I need someone to defend me, she would be one of those people but I was wrong .  

I am a person who seldom talk about my feelings but last night, I really couldn’t help myself (guess, that’s the effect when you’re birthday is a few hours away), I became emotional that I had to talk to someone.  Because aside from the fact that someone had betrayed me, I also know that there are 2 reasons why people would talk ill behind your back.  One is either they envy you because you’re good at what you do that you threaten them as a person or that you really sucked.  I know people are talking behind my back all this time but that didn’t mean much for those were just my specualtions.  Having a confirmation is another thing but I would just usually brush it off and try to do better but right now, isn’t really my best times.  With all the stuff going on at work, let us say that my confidence is really low right now.  So, this thing really affected me.  For I am not just questioning myself about how good of a friend I am but I am also questioning my competency as a leader.

So as I was closing the old chapter in my life with a sad note, a friend who was kind enough to spend the last few hours before the new chapter in my life began, he told me to think of it as a starting point to reinvent myself.  Make a new version of me, just like a software.  He said that events happen in our lives to make us into the person that we are so one should learn from them to innovate themselves.  Then he said, maybe now is the time that you make Michy version 25.2.

I had a prayer once and I said to the Lord, that if I will see him, that means we were meant to be if not, then that means I will have to let him go and move on with my life.  Last week, my prayers has been answered.  I saw him walk passed me and I was just there staring at him.  I had the feeling that he would be there but I never expected to see him.  For I have given up on the hope of ever seeing him.  But finally seeing him after all this time, I am left wondering if seeing him was truly a sign that we are meant to be or was it a game that fate had once again played on me?  Was it my only opportunity to meet him and fate’s role was to just put us in one place and I was supposed to do or say something to him?  I guess this is what I often hear some people say, it is better to regret for doing something rather that regret for not doing anything.  And so yes, I guess I am regretting the fact that I didn’t do anything.  I just looked at him as he stopped in front of my very eyes and watch him leave.  *sigh*  

Now my question is, should I  continue waiting for him?  If I do, how long should I wait again?

Arrived in Bacolod City, Negros Occidental at 12:20PM. Was not so impressed by the place. It’s not far from how Tacloban and Catbalogan look and feel like. Now I understand why they say it is laid back compared to Cebu and Manila.

The Principal, Senyorito, Mother Len, Father Stephen and I had lunch at Chicken House in the East side of the city. I had spareribs as suggested by the Mother and I have to agree that it is good. I think it is even better compared to the spare ribs of Casa Verde and Moon Cafe. It tastes better and at a cheaper price. How cheap? One serving is at Php 55.

P.S. At a cafe right now hoping to do my PDC courses on Time Management. Sad thing is, it’s not loading. And there is a kid behind me who is playing by himself and sings the same song over and over.