Let’s make things clear first. I don’t know how to swim. Well, that was in early June this year. Hehehe. That was in June for I have decided last May that I will take up swimming lessons this year and I started going to a 1o session class on the latter part of June. We were in Bantayan, Cebu last May and it dawned on me how much fun I missed when we head to the beach or to resorts with pool in them. And finally learning how to swim made me regret even more for letting so much time and opportunities to learn how to swim to pass me by. You see when I go swimming, I feel relaxed and revitalized. Although my body feels tired after, my mind feels refreshed! When I’m in the pool, I stop thinking about the things that bothers me. My work, my finances, my family and my ever zero balance love life. When I’m there paddling myself to the other side of the pool, I only think of one thing… Staying afloat. I guess this is the reason why I going into the water and swim. It’s an escape for me, unlike being on land. A lot of things going through my mind that sometimes, I don’t even know how to address them anymore…

Sadness, no wait I think loneliness is the appropriate word. I have been going through the entries in the site of a Taiwanese star and the feeling that I get after reading his articles is loneliness. Maybe it’s just me. I don’t know. But I do get a feeling that he was just trying to sound happy for his fans but with the words that he use I’d say he is lonely. One of his articles is about Michael Jackson and you could really feel his connection to MJ emotionally. MJ is a superstar but you could see that he was longing for something. Same for this guy, you would feel that he likes what he does but he is longing for something. I’m not sure if this is really how he feels but one thing is for sure though. That is how I feel. I like my job and the people that I work with but there is still one void there that I need to fill as what Kriste had told me. But I am not sure though if that void is finding that special person whom I have waited for for 28 years (going 29 years and counting) or is that void about doing what I really want to do? Sheesh and to think I am not even a star.

Equistrians are horseback riders and among the athletes I find them as one of the fashionable.  It’s like everything needs to corporate with everything else.  What I mean to say is, even the smallest equiptment has to go along everything else.  From their helmet or cap or whatever they call it, to their clothes and even their breeches.  It seems like fashion is a crucial part for being an equistrian.  Now I’m wodering if horseback riders are indeed this fashionable in the old days.  Maybe they are for one can never be a horseback rider if you unless you can afford to have a horse.  Right?