I was a bit confused these passed few days.  I think I was falling for a guy and I just couldn’t understand why.  I have seen him a couple of times, we even rode the elevator just the two of us from the 12th floor to the ground level without saying a word to one another even though we worked for the same company and I don’t even look his way when he is around.  So I was asking myself how is it that I felt what I felt just now?  Is it because the feeling was developed or was it because it was only now that I accepted the fact that finally I fell for a guy who is within reach?  But what really confused me is that I have seen things that I don’t like about him.  For one he is “maangas”, “feeling” and a show-off.  Things that I don’t like in a person but how come I felt what I felt?  Last Friday, I felt nervous and edgy so I stepped out of the floor and texted my family about how they’re doing and decided to go the pantry while waiting for them to text me back and I saw him there.  But I was surprised for the nervousness and the edginess had vanished.  So was it his presence who took it all away or was it because I was surprised to see him there?  Well, I got to admit that after working with him for a couple of hours, I did feel something weird and I’d say I was hoping to see him again.  Whoahhh!!!  But really, I can’t fall for this guy.  He is not the guy that I want to be with.  Even a colleague of mine who was unware of how I felt for him and was with us during that short project said that I do not have a taste when it comes to men if I fall for his type (nope, he’s not ugly).  Sheesh!