I presented my report yesterday during our skip level and boy, it was not an easy one I tell you.  It was so hard for me in fact that I ended up with tears in my eyes.  Not that my performance was bad or my managers were mean but it was the feeling of being overwhelmed with the experience and the realization how inexperienced I am when it comes to these things.  And what made it worst was when I go teary eyed it would lead to crying.  After my presentation I really wanted to go to the washroom and compose myself but I was not able to hold it back long enough to even go beyond my seat.  The tears just went falling down my face  and I sat down on my chair I started crying with everyone in the room.  It was a bit embarrassing but it was a relieving experience for I was able to put the feelings out in the open.  And I felt a lot better for  everyone was really going around and tried to make me feel better even my boss.  I never wanted it to happen but I guess with all the things that completely came to light I so overwhelmed with it.  It didn’t really go the way I wanted it to be even if I was all green with my team’s metrics but I came to realize a lot of things.  That there’s nothing wrong in reaching out to your peers and ask for their help.  That yes, it’s good to be able to do things on your own (like I have always done) but it will be a lot better to be able to work with other people.  And the first step to do so was to let go of whatever reservations I have with the people around me.  What happened yesterday was humilitating for me but you know, now that I come to think of it, made me more mature and changed the way I look at my job and the people that I work with.  It made me more mature and more confident that I will be able to do my job better moving forward.