A friend of mine told me that I should get a boyfriend now before it becomes too late. She said that if I don’t get a boyfriend now that I’m just a supervisor it will be hard to get one when I get an even higher position. And I was like, what made you think so? She said that it was because of the episode that she saw in Charmed where Pheobe was told by her manager to get a boyfriend if she doesn’t want to be like her manager who has a successful career but ended up lonely. And I was like, what made you think that I will be successful? She replied, well, you’re already on your way. You just got promoted and the next thing you’ll know you’re already on the next level.

Like haller! As if I’m not aware of the fact that it’s hard to get a boyfriend. I didn’t even had one when I was in school much more now that I’m a bit busy with my work. These people are driving me crazy! Even my supervisors are demanding that I get one. If only you could buy a boyfriend from the store I would have done it just to stop a lot of people from bugging me about it. But why get a boyfriend if he’ll just be a headache? I’d rather stay single if getting a boyfriend means staying in one spot and not be able to go to places and do things that I want to do anytime I want to? Anyway, who said that I’m aiming for a higher position? Remember… My dream life is to buy a house in the country side and become a cook for some diner somewhere in Europe? So I will get a boyfriend someday. Okay?!

I’m not really sure if the politicians in the Philippines is really worth the taxes that we the Filipinos pay. Imagine almost 30% of what I earn goes to my taxes and yet one of the congressmen of the Philippines wants to waste time and the money that a lot of people have worked hard for over a congressional hearing for Judy Ann Santos, a local actress in the Philippines just because she appeared in an informational ad about what makes up the monthly electric bill of the Filipinos. The ad discussed what is System loss charge about. The ad was quiet helpful for it did answer a lot of the questions that the Filipinos have because Mr. GSIS of the Philippines had raised a war against a privately owned electric company. He wants the major stock holder to sell their share to the government so that the government will run it. He said that if the government will take over the company then the electric bills of the Filipino people will go down. Like HALLER!!!! If the company will just go to the likes of Mr. Incompetent and to Mr. GSIS, let us not mention their names so that they won’t become famous and so that they won’t be able to use it as a campaign ad in the 2010 elections in the Philippines, then the residents in Metro Manila should consider getting their own power generators.

Why? My God, would you even consider letting Mr. Incompetent whom I’m not even sure if he understood what the ad was about, to run a multi million company? Or would you let Mr. GSIS, who can’t even fix the problems in the government agency that he is handling run Meralco? Come on! I really can’t understand what these people take the Filipinos for? When will they stop treating us like dumb people? Just because most of us stopped going to the streets to protest means that we agree to what they want to happen. Didn’t it even sink into their dumb minds that the Filipinos are tired of seeing our country in the dumps. That we have realized that there are better ways to help the country progress. Instead of just complaining about our situation, we the Filipinos are working our butts off to earn and pay the right taxes. It’s just ashame that there are PEOPLE who are supposed to serve the country are using our money for sense-less things and for their own personal gain.

There people who loves to sleep until noon. But me I love to wake up at dawn because I love to watch the sky changes it’s color. From black to dark blue with streaks of red, orange and yellow because of the sun rising then to light blue. I also love the smell of early morning breeze and how cool it feels on my face. I also feel at peace during this time for all that you could hear are the chirping of the birds and the crows of the roosters from I don’t know where unlike at noon when all you hear are the roar of the machines and some people quarreling. Before when my work starts at 8AM I would usually wake up at 6AM and sit in our balcony to watch the birds fly, watch the sky change it’s color and feel the breeze of early dawn. Hay… How I miss the breeze of the early morning breeze. This is one of the things that I don’t like in working for the call center industry.

You spend dawn inside a building instead of spending it in your balcony with a cup of hot drink. And you spend the nights working instead of sleeping. You sleep in the morning and miss a lot of things that had happened. You also spend the holidays in the office rather than spend it with your love ones. But then again, there are no other industries who is as diverse like the call center industry. Companies don’t judge you by the course that you took in school. They don’t judge you by who knows you or who you know. They judge you by your capabilities and your attitude towards your job. That’s why I’m sticking around in this industry for a while. So what I do know is I stand by a window in the office to watch the skies.

Go home as soon as I can after the end of my shift so that I can get out of the building to feel the breeze of fresh air. I also wake up at 4AM during my rest days to listen to the sound of early dawn. I’ll do this until I can get out of this industry and do what I love to do.

A friend of mine asked me if I have seen a movie entitled PS I love you. I told her that the title sounds familiar however, I’m not sure if I’ve seen it. She said it was about a woman who lost her husband to cancer and she got mails from him after he died. This is his way of helping her cope with her lose. Then I realized this is the book that I’ve read. And if I’m not mistaken it was Reader’s Digest who published it. It was a good book. I cried a good deal while I was reading it. I guess it made such an impact that when I remembered it my tears started to well under my eyes. I’m not sure what made me cry though when I read the book. Was it because of the loss that the girl felt or was it the thought that her husband went through all the trouble to come up with a way to help her get through the ordeal of losing somebody that she truly loves even when he was ill? It was a sad book, really. But romantic as well. There was a part when the girl and her husband was fighting and the guy held her face in two hands, looked her in the eyes and asked her “what do you want? Because I know what I want. I’m holding it in hands.” Wahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wonder how some people could easily find things to write about. And write about it so beautifully and sensibly. Is it really a gift or is it something that they have done for so long that it became easy for them to do it? Some of these people can even write about a shirt and go on about it without boring the people who reads it. And they can even write about it in a short period of time. A friend of mine asked me to write 50 short articles about anything that I want to write about in a month. Well, guess what, 5 month have passed and I’m not done with the fifty articles yet. So I wonder how they do it. You know come up with the topic and write a book about in a short period of time and keep the attention of the people who reads it. Because I can’t even keep the attention of the person that I talk to even for 10 minutes much more have them read about what I think. I had a feedback for a coaching session where one of my coachees told my mentor that I was boring.

Great! Thank you so much for confirming what I already know. So here I am contemplating if I really should go for a career in writing. Funny isn’t it? I don’t know. At times I just want to do things because I want to do them and then I’ll just drop it without any reason at all. And right now, I want to write. About what? That I can’t answer yet. At times I just don’t know what I like to do. Just like my brat friend, at times, I find myself wanting to stop what I am doing and do something else. Something that I feel like doing at the spur of the moment. Even though at times I don’t even know what that something is. Am I impulsive? No I don’t think so. Well, at least my DiSC result says so. It said that I am an analytical thinker. I think before I move. At times I even think too much that at the end I end up not doing what I want to do. Crazy isn’t it?

There was a song by Code Red entitled “What good is a heart” whose lyrics goes, what good is a heart if you’re not willing to use it? My question is, what good does it do to have the willingness to use it when there’s no one to use it with? Hehehe, a rhetorical question but I think it applies to a lot of people. Remember that there are people who are not in a relationship not because they want it that way but because they didn’t find somebody to commit to. Or they did find that someone but that someone was not willing to commit into a relationship with them.

They said that the secret to a great marriage is a great friendship. You and your partner should remain as friends as you are lovers. For the time will come when the romance in the relationship will die. When you will start to feel that your wife is starting to act like your mother who nags you about almost everything (which is her right since she only wants the best for you) and your husband will start to act like your son (who will always think that he knows what he’s doing and that he can do it on his own). But you know that’s natural order of things. Love is an emotion. And like any kind of emotion, it changes or even worse it fades. But friendship, friendship is a relationship.

It has been built on trust, respect and experiences that both of you have gone through. Friends have an open communication. They tell each other things that could hurt the other but the other will soon realize that it was said to make us see the truth and for our well being. I guess that’s what make friendships last. One thing that I have noticed with couples who have broken up is there is no communication between two parties. They don’t listen to what the other has to say. Just like in the movie Sex and the City, the guy was already freaking out and was trying to tell Carrie about it, but Carrie was so excited about the wedding that she didn’t listen to her groom. On the wedding day, the guy decided not to show up in the ceremony and called Carrie about it but decided to go back and explain himself but Carrie was so bewildered and hurt that she just hit him with the bouquet and left without hearing the guy out. Months passed and the guy was still trying to reach out but she stopped responding. See if she only listened to the guy, she would have learned that he was just trying to protect what they have and he was afraid for her not for him. So they spent a lot of time without each other which could have been avoided if she would just listen. I haven’t given this a thought before.

I have always dreamt of meeting somebody to sweep me of my feet. Somebody whom I’ll fall in love with at first sight because that will be the most romantic thing. But now, I realized, love at first sight can never be enough. If ever that it will happen both parties should learn to befriend one another or they will just end up apart. Because through friendship, people learns to listen and forgive one another. They accept each other for who they are so they keep no secrets from each other.

I’ve just learned that the guy whom I talked about a couple of entries back is no longer in our province. He went somewhere else. Such a waste. And I was even hoping to see him again when I go back home. Oh well, then it only means one thing. We’re not meant to be. Hahaha… As if! Hehehe… Anyway, I wish him luck. I hope he’ll find what he is looking for and I hope he’ll succeed in the field that he chose to take. I know it’s going to be a bit difficult ‘coz there are a lot of them in that field and not all make it to the top so I really wish him luck. I didn’t really expect that he will go for that course because I never saw him that way. But I guess a lot of people didn’t as well. Since a lot of people were taken aback when we heard the news. Wow! I guess that’s the first sign huh? I mean if you really like somebody and you know that person, you will have that gut feeling about what he will be in the future. In his case, I didn’t have any. No clues at all. Like what I’ve said, I didn’t even thought that he will take such course in college. So could this mean that even if he had courted me, it wouldn’t work out anyway? because we don’t know one another much.

I’ve always wanted to live in a castle. I guess that’s what you get in reading a lot of fairy tale stories. When I was younger, we used to live with the family of my dad’s sister. She has four children who were way older than me and my siblings so we get to read their books in their library. And since my parents couldn’t afford to buy us toys and much worse they don’t believe in toys, so I ended up readng books. My favorite book then was a red fairy tales book which had around a hundred stories. Then I would imagine myself living in a castle with the twelve dancing princesses or picture Cinderella sleeping near the fire place. And then gorwing up I would imagine meeting my Prince charming who would take me away with him to live happily ever after. Although 27 years have passed and still my prince charming haven’t arrived yet but then that will be a story for another day.

Last Saturday, May 17, 2008, my friends and I went to Argao, Cebu to attend the 3rd birthday celebration of Angela, the daughter of one of my friends. And since we had a couple of hours to spend one of my friends asked the group if we would want to see a castle. And since I’ve always dreamt of living in one, I joined him in convincing our friends to go. So we rode a tricycle (a motorcycle with a cart attached to it’s side) and off we went to the Riverstone Castle.

I was so amazed when I saw the place. Whoever built the place did use river stones to build its walls. When you pass the main gate, you will see a bridge with a small creek underneath with crocodiles in it and knights (made of cement) guarding the gates. In the main building, you will find a tavern which has an aquarium underneath it, a royal hall which serves pizza for 230 pesos per pan, a karaoke hall on the second floor, a mini court yard in the center of the property, a swimming pool and mini zoo with some exotic animals. They also have small towers that you can climb to see the forest around it and the sea that surrounds the shores of the area.

It felt weird being there. It’s like I’m in a different dimension. I was like waiting for a noble man or woman to pass by in their royal wardrobe. Hehehe… But seriously, it was a great place to visit. It’s a great get away if you would want to get out of the city to think things through or to just get away from it all. The place is really quiet since it’s outside of the town proper and it’s also almost on the top of the mountain not a lot of people would pass by the place. And since it’s a bit secluded and they only have five available rooms you’ll really feel like you’ve got the place for yourself.